Yesterday was a day that I should of just stop while I was ahead.
Now I don’t really think when I become mean. I just act, you can asks my sisters all about this. My sister Breanne
tells this story of when we were little how I stole her hair ties and how she finds them in my room apparently and takes them back. Now when I have discovered that she took them back, according to her she knew the moment I knew they were gone.
Now yesterday I don’t know really know why I got so upset and I don’t know what I was thinking but I picked a fight. Now according to Cody I was mad that he didn’t want me to heat up some Mac & cheese that he got from his dad.
I really think the real reason why I was so upset was because his mom told me that Wyatt didn’t have lunch yet and it was already 5pm (really people who doesn’t feed a 1 year old LUNCH! OMG!!! ) now I can’t really get that angry at his mom because well she’s his mom and it wasn’t her fault things just came up I guess. So instead I ended up taking it out on Cody which isn't fair to him.
I picked and picked at Cody until he snapped and he slammed his fist into the fridge. Which I thought was very shocking and I knew that I made this happen so of course this made his point and I backed off.
Cody rarely gets this angry and doesn’t do things like this so I know that I crossed a line but in a way it was kind of sexy. It turned me on little to see him actually be that generally upset.
So because of that, today I have come to the decision that I need angry management. I need to do the 10 seconds of breathing or something. Or maybe I will just need to not find it so enjoyable to push people’s buttons and also as Cody says “just to LET IT GO!” So if you know how I could do this please for Cody’s sake let me know.Tweet