it is 1:30 in the morning and i am wide awake. my mind will not shut its self off with worry. i worrying like any mother does when they are about to leave their son with someone other then themselves for more than a few hours.
in the morning, well this morning at 8am Cody and i will be heading on our mini vacation to Vegas to spend a few days dancing, enjoying, and loving each other. we are leaving Wyatt behind with my mother for those days. who i know will take good care of my goose. but, i cant sleep knowing that he will not be with me. the “what ifs” twirl around in my mind. what if this happens, what if that happens, what if i never come home because this happens… what if i never get to hold my baby again. what if… i hate the what ifs. i hate leaving Wyatt. but i love my husband. a lot. and i want to spend this time with him. i want to reconnect with him. i want to dance the night away with him. i want to sleep next to him with out Wyatt on the other side. i want to feel f r e e. free and in love.
So goodbye goose, have fun at grandmas and I will be home soon.
P s. I love you more then you know and no matter what I always will. A l w a y s. that’s a promise.Tweet