Friday, March 9, 2012

F r e e and in love…


it is 1:30 in the morning and i am wide awake. my mind will not shut its self off with worry.  i worrying like any mother does when they are about to leave their son with someone other then themselves for more than a few hours.

in the morning, well this morning at 8am Cody and i will be heading on our mini vacation to Vegas to spend a few days dancing, enjoying, and loving each other. we are leaving Wyatt behind with my mother for those days. who i know will take good care of my goose. but,  i cant sleep knowing that he will not be with me. the “what ifs” twirl around in my mind. what if this happens, what if that happens, what if i never come home because this happens… what if i never get to hold my baby again. what if… i hate the what ifs. i hate leaving Wyatt. but i love my husband. a lot. and i want to spend this time with him. i want to reconnect with him. i want to dance the night away with him. i want to sleep next to him with out Wyatt on the other side. i want to feel f r e e. free and in love.

So goodbye goose, have fun at grandmas and I will be home soon.

P s. I love you more then you know and no matter what I always will.  A l w a y s. that’s a promise.


  1. It is sooo hard to leave them. My husband and I are hoping to do a mini vaction soon. I hope you have a great time! Enjoy it!

  2. You need the time. The break. And Wyatt will be there to greet you with a big o'l grin & hopefully his trademark silly glasses when you go home. :)

  3. We did thanks! and I hope u get to have one yourself.


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