Lately, I have be struggling. My plate is full, full of work responsibility's, motherly duties, wifely duties and photography. I want to be the best at all those things and I feel like I am coming up short. My shoe department is not the way I want it which makes me take more time away from my family to bring it up to the standards I want it to be like which then in turns makes me feel like I am failing at the mother/wife duties.
Then there is photography. My passion, my sense of release. The thing that makes me feel better about all the other things. But its lacking. My creative-ness seems to not be there and I feel like I am failing at giving my clients what they want because I just don't seem to have time. I don't have time to spend on how I want my business to be. I don't have time to take the pictures I want. I have plans, ideas, dreams but I just don't know how to make them real.
I hate that I have to be a working mom.
I hate that I love my job.
I hate that I gain more photography clients than I know what to do with.
I hate that I hate that.
I hate that Wyatt goes to a babysitter so I can catch up on things.
I hate that I have to catch up.
I hate that all the photog bloggers I admire are stay at home moms.
I hate that I hate that.
and I hate that my husband feels like I waste my time on the computer.
I hate that he doesn't get it.
I don't know where to go from here.
I don't know how to manage my time and I don't have time to learn how.
I hate that I don't ask for help.
So, help.
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