Wednesday, November 28, 2012

3 minutes of waiting and hoping


My Husband doesn't share the same heartbreak that I do when it comes down to me not being pregnant yet. He laughs and makes some stupid comment while rolling his eyes. But I have pretty much cried all day about it.

Mainly because I really thought I was.

I knew instantly when I got pregnant with Wyatt. Literally, I went to bed that night had a very vivid dream about him. My mom was holding him and another brown haired baby in her lap and when I walked up to her she handed me a blonde hair 3 or 4 month old and said “Here Audrey, take your son.” I woke up and knew that I would be having a boy. Never doubt it.

(For a while I thought I was going to have twins because of the other baby my mom was holding but it turns out that it was my brothers son who is a few weeks older than Wyatt.)

Well for the passed couple of days I have being having dreams about 2 babies. One boy, one I am pretty sure is a girl but I cant quite tell yet. They are in a crib that's in Cody and I’s bed room they are crying. I hear them while I am laying in our bed and I get up and start to walk toward the crib but by the time I finally get to them I wake up.

Not only am I having dreams now, I also am having some symptoms. Like I have being tired a lot. Not just because I have been working crazy hours but like I cant grasp what is on my mind, I am forgetful and cant focus until I take a nap. I also having been eating in the morning more and craving breakfast all day. crying all the time and still no period but what I thought sealed the deal was how tender my boobs have been.

I feel like they have grown a whole cup size in the last couple of days and it hurts to wear a bra but even more so when I take it off. I cant brush by them with out it hurting.

Right, I have some symptoms. or I am just crazy?

So I finally decided that I was going to take another test. I even got one that clearly states pregnant or not pregnant just in case.

Well… 3 minutes of waiting and hoping

I was deny once again.

It was a big not pregnant

and I cried by self on the toilet.

I know I know, it could be too early to tell by those test and I know that with out really knowing when I am actually suppose to have a period that it could cause it to not show either. So I am going to wait a few more days or 3 as the insert in the test states and try again. And if it still shows that I am not pregnant I think I am going to make an appointment with the doctor to either see if 1. I am or 2. why I am not yet and why I haven't had a period yet either.


Why cant my baby come already?


  1. I remember when that happened to me before I got pregnant this last time. It was devastating emotionally... irrationally so. Maybe you had a chemical pregnancy (where the embryo doesn't implant) and maybe you'll get the answer you want soon. Praying for you tonight!!

    1. Thank you for the prayers and man, I hope that it is just to early to tell. I think its harder to not get my hopes up for a baby just because it was so easy for me when I wanted Wyatt. But thanks again for the prayers.

  2. This made me so sad for you. I pray you will be blessed with another baby because you are an incredible and loving mother. xo

    1. Thank you, thanks for the prayers. I really do hope that I am blessed enough to have another one. Thanks.

  3. I know a lot of couples that got pregnant right away for their first, and took a lot of time for their second. I'm sure it'll happen for you when its meant to happen! Fingers crossed for you!!!

  4. Aww, hon, I am so sorry it didn't happen right when you wanted it to happen. But it doesn't mean it is never going to happen. You are young and beautiful and strong. But from what I've read on your blog you are also a bit like me, meaning you get stressed easily from various things. It's not good for us. :) So don't worry and focus on your beautiful boy and loving husband. It WILL happen. ;) Lots of hugs!!

  5. Awww. I am so sorry. Praying for you. You are such an awesome mom to Wyatt and I hope you all are blessed with a babe soon.


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