Lately I have been searching... okay maybe not searching but yearning for a moment. A moment to sit and do nothing or everything or at least something for me. I feel like lately I have been selfish but not in the selfish kind of way for me. does that make sense? I have had a lot of opportunities the last few months to improve my self and I have jumped on the chance to do so but the end result of all of that is that I have become busy and I didn't expect that.
So those moments that I had to be selfish for me has turned into being selfish for others. Things have lacked around the house because of that plus the guilt I have because I havent been able to spend the time I want with Wyatt and I seem to have lost the sight of how it use to be when time was simple.
What did I do when he was little and I was home? and how can I get back there but still do what I want?
With that being said I told my self tonight that I am going back to the basics.
Which are and should be:
First making myself happy
then the husband.
So as the hubby come home from work we talked for a few minutes about his day but then I said "your on your own I am going to be away for awhile... Blogging Editing and listen to music. See ya." and I did just that... Because that makes me happy.
Now I didn't sit and edit the Clients photos. I took the time to get caught up on all my stuff... which has been neglected the last couple of months because I became booked quite fast which I am grateful for but at the same time I knew that I needed to breath regardless.
So I am breathing...
Its nice to get some air in my lungs because tomorrow I WILL be the Mom I want to be... The Wife I should be and The Person I yearn to be.Tweet